Sunday, 5 November 2017

25 Things That Make Me Happy

1. Family & Friends
2. Overcoming a struggle
3. Being Cosy
4. Fairy Lights
5. Idyllic Settings
6. Christmas
7. Unbelievably soft clothing
8. A great book
9. Achievement
10. & Completion 
11. A pair of shoes which don't kill my feet
12. Olly Murs 
13. Dancing like no one's watching 
14. Looking through photo's
15. Finding new places
16. Baking
17. Meeting new people
18. Soft scarves, jumpers and blankets
19. Cute puppies
20. Pizza
21. Doughnuts
22. Perfection
23. Freshly cut flowers
24. Sunshine
25. Smiles 


Sunday, 29 October 2017

6 Ways To Get In The Halloween Spirit

Halloween has soon become one of my favourite times of year as there's so much to do and a great excuse to get together with friends and family as it appeals to people of any age. So I thought I would share my favourite things to do at this time of year.

1. Carve Pumpkins
Every year I look forward to carving into the biggest pumpkin I can find and making it look terrifying even though mine always ends up looking slightly cuter or cheeky I don't know why! But never the less gets me in the spirit. Plus just the feel of scooping out the squelchy insides is enough to feel gory! (Or is that just me!) 

2. Dress Up
Unless your going to a party or fright night this is probably a bit harder as I'm definitely not suggesting dressing up as a vampire or zombie on Halloween and going to do your shopping - unless that's what floats your boat obvs - but I am a massive fan of the t-shirts and jumpers that highstreet stores release with the cute little puns. I got mine from NewLook with a little ghost that says Boooootiful which I thought was proper cute! There are loads available and can easily be styled to suit whatever you may be doing even if it's just a day at college!

3. A Halloween Party 
I can't remember the last time I went to a proper Halloween party but I ALWAYS have a little gathering at least where we eat a lot of food, have some gory Halloween sweet treats and watch scary movies. It's a great excuse to get together whilst also celebrating the season.

4. A Scare Night
This is my absolute favourite thing about Halloween! This is when farms or forests create scare mazes where people essentially jump out at you and scare you. One of the most raved about is Tulleys Farm which I would love to go to but is a bit far from where I live but there are some great ones usually close to everyone's local area.

5. Halloween Films
I don't think I have ever had a Halloween without watching Hocus Pocus which is an absolute classic. I'm not a massive fan of horror movies as I find them a bit boring even though I do watch them I much prefer the Halloween related films so you can find something to suit everyone. TV series are also great such as Stranger Things or The Vampire Diaries which never seem to fail me.

6. Halloween Baking
This is my favourite past time so at Halloween its the perfect excuse to make endless ghoulish cakes and biscuits but if you're not a fan of baking you can also get some pretty good already made ones from your local supermarket. Pinterest is a great place to look for ideas. 




Sunday, 15 October 2017

My Favourite Quotes

Oh, I do love a good quote and over my years I have come across quite a few that I live by and inspire me on a daily basis. Whilst there are some, people have repeatedly told me in my lowest moments which have stuck with me and make them even more special.

'She Believed She Could So She Did'  

'Every cloud has a silver lining'

'You can have all the talent in the world but
 if you don't work hard at it, it'll never become you' - Olly Murs

'Life begins at the end of your comfort zone'

'Don't let someone dim your light because it's shining brighter than theres'

'Beauty begins the moment you be yourself' - Coco Chanel

'Everything will be okay'

'Be a princess with the strength of a warrior'

'F.E.A.R has two meanings:
Forget Everything And Run
Face Everything And Rise'

'Just Say Yes'

'Always look on the bright side of life'

'Enjoy the little things in life for one day
you will look back to realise they were the most important things'

'Be the best version of you'


Wednesday, 11 October 2017

Memories Last Forever!

Over the past months I have been keeping a scrapbook and I love it. I stick in photos from the places I have been or things I have done and keep any tickets or memorabilia such as postcards and make a collage of each place on each page. The techniques used in my scrapbook are no different to the next persons with just a bit of cutting, a bit of sticking and a bit of doodling so I'm not here to say how its done as its pretty obvious but I wanted to share a few pages and encourage the idea of keeping one. 

Everything nowadays is digital which in some ways is great as everything is backed up but on the other hand, how many times do you look at the photos you have taken? and also why throw away small bits of paper when they are memories. Of course I'm not suggesting everything is worth keeping but in the future I can't think of anything better than looking back through my scrapbook with family members who might not even have experienced it and laughing, smiling fondly at memories which I am so glad to have made. 

I now appreciate every moment. 

While creating the page I think of the extremely happy time and get the same warm fuzzy feeling as I did on the day which I do not believe you can get digitally.


Sunday, 8 October 2017

OOTD | Staying Cosy In Autumn

I've said it once and I'll say it again... Autumn fashion is hands down my absolute favourite and this year is definitely no different! As soon as I saw this coat, it screamed cosy and I wasn't wrong! It is like a massive dressing gown that I can wear outside and I don't think ANYBODY would have a problem with that! The colour also sums up Autumn as it is a burnt orange colour so is completely wearable with anything autumnal. I was also seriously impressed by the quality of it as it was my first time buying from In The Style but its amazing. The woolliness also continues all the way down the arms so its perfect now its getting cold. I paired this with a slightly darker burnt orange tartan scarf from Primark. Then the other item of clothing I am living in at the moment which is this bardot grey jumper dress from Pretty Little Thing. It is a body con fit so it is super flattering on me and again very warm and cosy. Its perfect to dress up or down. For footwear I went for over the knee black suede boots from New Look which again add to the autumnal vibe. I kept the jewellery quite minimal but wore a layered choker necklace from Miss Selfridge and my usual 'everyday' rings from Pandora. 



Sunday, 1 October 2017

10 Reasons I Love Autumn

Autumn is arguably the best season of the year and every year I share my love for the slightly colder month through this post so I thought why make this year any different.

1. Crisp, cold weather
I absolutely hate the humidity of summer so I am so grateful when the weather changes plus I know Autumn is finally hear so I can then change my fashion and all the other great things you can find out when you keep reading ;-) 

2. Boots
They are my favourite type of shoe and I have more pairs than I can count. With a big pair of socks underneath to keep my toes warm or with a pair of tights and a skirt. There's never ending choices of outfits and I never get bored of it!

3. Scarves
Another thing I can't count how many I own are scarves. I see a nice one. I get it. It's like a constant hug when ones wrapped round you especially the massive ones which go round twice. They're just so soft, snuggly and warm I love them.

4. Pyjama's and Dressing Gowns
Autumns the perfect excuse to cuddle up in a good pair of jim jams earlier than would usually be appropriate. Come home in the evening and straightaway you can snuggle down with a hot drink, snacks and a great TV.

5. Films and Great TV
Autumns the time when all the great TV gets put on. The dramas, the reality TV like the X Factor and I'm a Celebrity plus The Great British Bake Off. Netflix is bringing out Stranger Things and Riverdale. AND then theres the excuse to watch films such as Hocus Pocus. Cosy nights in occupied by all those sounds brilliant to me!

6. Hallowe'en
I don't really do anything special but even so there's something so nice about knowing it it Hallowe'en  and watching a scary film, carving a pumpkin or my annual trip to a horror/thrill fest its just a great time of year.

7. Bonfire Night
This is my third favourite day of the year - i know a bit specific but christmas obvs number one and then my birthdays a strong contender! aha - I just love wrapping up warm and going to a firework display. This year I am more than likely working on bonfire night at the event but even so I love to watch the show and experience the atmosphere. 

8. The things to do
This leads on from Hallowe'en and Bonfire Night but in Autumn there is so much to do theres the days like above and all the fun things to do around them plus they're's the added excitement as everyday Christmas gets nearer and nearer.

9. The food and hot drinks
In Autumn I'm sure I eat my body weight in hot chocolate, hot doughnuts, toffee apples and general unhealthy things but somethings got to keep me warm!

10. The leaves falling
Just walking down the road in Autumn is so idyllic with every step making a crunching noise and its so pretty. That is until it runs and all of a sudden they are all wet and slippy and eurgh the perfect vision doesn't last very long!

What's your favourite thing about Autumn?


Wednesday, 27 September 2017

When Anxiety Takes Over


I may appear like my life is figured out, makeup on, hair done and smile fixed but that doesn't mean I am OK.

I wake up every morning to face something. Something that consumes me. Stops me doing the things I love. Achieving the things I am capable of.

Just because you can't see it what's to say it doesn't exist. 

I have anxiety.

My brain is moving faster than I can comprehend. The thoughts mount up inside me, my heart pounds with every quick inhale and exhale that occurs with every single irrational thought.
I am scared of what may come, what may happen even if there isn't a problem because most of the time there isn't a problem, it doesn't exist there's no reason, no explanation to why every minute lasts forever yet my mind feels as if it is moving faster than time itself.

I bite the inside of my mouth trying to find a solution, a way to get myself out, I blame myself and think I am crazy. My hands shake, my foot taps, whilst I play with a piece of hair and fidget in my seat. Before I realise it...

 I have lost control.

Lost control of what is right, what is reality and most of all what I am doing.

My words are meaningless, with no thought behind them, I can't concentrate, as all I can think of is my own voice, my own thoughts. Drowning out all that is real, telling me- ' I am ill', 'I am trapped' or ' I am alone' they are getting louder and faster by every moment. But...

When will it stop.

This is a bad day, a bad hour or just a few minutes, where I feel there's no way out of a vicious cycle. These days will pass and good ones come too, and I am lucky the good appear more than the bad but just because my thoughts cannot be seen it doesn't mean I am fine.


Sunday, 24 September 2017

My Favourite Nudes | The Lipstick Edit

I feel like it has been FOREVER since I wrote a makeup post on my blog as I lost all inspiration even though I still absolutely love makeup. However, today I am back with something I really really love and that is nudes! ( Nude lipsticks btw. don't get thinking wrongly of me now!) I am particularly loving the browny-pinks and my liquid lipstick collection is growing and growing so I thought I would share a few of my faves. They are all the same kind of tone except one maybe two as I have been loving the shade.

MAC Mehr - By far my absolute favourite! As you can tell it has been worn a lot! I have had it for a round a year and is my most worn lipstick as it just lasts forever on the lips with only one top up needed if its a particularly long day whilst the matte isn't at all drying as it sits comfortably on the lips. At £16.50 its also not the most priciest of lipsticks and I don't think MAC lipsticks can be faulted. The lipstick is mainly a pink nude but does have a slight brown undertone which makes it more of a nude and a gorgeous one at that!

MAC Brave - Keeping with the MAC theme but a relatively new purchase as I only got it back in June, its definitely another favourite and has earned a solid place in my makeup bag. At a first glance it looks exactly like Mehr but as a satin formula it gives a lovely sheen to the lips but without losing any pigmentation. Its also slightly more pink on the lips than Mehr making it a bit more girly opposed to Mehr which is heading more towards the 90's grunge nude lip colours.

Rimmel Stay Matte Liquid Lip Pink Blink - On the more affordable side of around the £5 mark this is another of my favourites and also proves that you don't always have to spend a lot to get a lot. Rimmel has always been my favourite drugstore brand and this doesn't fall short of my expectations the pigmentation is great and lasts on the lips unless eating where I don't expect many lipsticks to stay on perfectly anyway. I would also say the matte formula is comfortable and not sticky or drying.

The Body Shop Matte Lip Liquid Nairobi Camellia - Is another of my favourites as it is my go to when I am after a nude even darker than Mehr. This is the perfect autumnal nude for my skin tone as it is a brown nude with a berry undertone. It is also very affordable again at £6 and the pigmentation and longevity cannot be faulted. However I do find this works even better with a lip liner such as Rimmel East End Snob (Another favourite) as it can then last the full day.

Urban Decay Vice Liquid Lipstick Naked - I bought this specifically for prom and expected it to be more expensive than £15.50 as I am aware high end lipsticks can be sky high prices but the colour is my perfect nude and as the name describes is naked on me making it appear a my lips but better colour. This lasts the best out of all of the liquid lipsticks and the pigmentation is great but it takes a while to dry if applied wrong. However, after a couple of wears I got used to the formula and once on is very nice to wear.

Whats your favourite nude lipstick?


Friday, 22 September 2017

Classic Makeup Look | Red Lips And Liner

Today's video is my go to, glam makeup look. If in doubt I will always reach for these products and create this look as it is a classic. However, if I'm feeling slightly less daring or it doesn't go with my outfit I'll swap the bold red lip for a nude which goes equally as nice and is equally as classic. 

I used a few products I have never mentioned before but all have a place in my makeup bag as they are all gorgeous and never fail me.


The Body Shop Seaweed Moisturiser
The Body Shop InstaBlur Primer
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Green
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Yellow
L'Oreal Infallible Foundation 
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Fair
Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer - Fair
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder - Transparent
Benefit Hoola Bronzer 
Soap & Glory Solar Powder 
Benefit Dandelion Blush
ABH DipBrow Pomade - Soft Brown
Smashbox Ablaze Palette
Zoeva Cocoa Blends Palette
MUG Cocoa Bear Single Shadow
Soap & Glory Supercat Liner 
Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara 
MAC Russian Red Lipstick 


Wednesday, 20 September 2017

5 Ways To Manage Anxiety

In no way am I an anxiety expert but as I sufferer I feel like I've been there and bought the t-shirt and in some ways, thats better as one thing I never understood when talking to someone about how I felt was how could they ever help me when they had no idea how it felt themselves. It's not just a bit of nerves or something that's just in my head. Its life consuming, it gets in the way of happiness and its all-around rubbish.

But I am luckily getting on the right track. I am in no way recovered as there's no simple cure but I have done things over the past months I didn't think I could ever do and I think it is down to a few of these things.

1. Make sure everything you do is something you want to do.
I didn't really 'want' to do anything but I still knew what I loved and what I enjoyed and what I didn't so in the first few times of going out I made sure they were things I knew I would 100% enjoy and would completely distract me once I started doing it. For me I went horse riding, shopping, walks through the countryside but whilst doing them I made sure there was something there that could potentially provoke my anxiety so I could fight it. By doing something I loved it meant I can pull through the anxiety opposed to doing something I didn't want to do as this would make my anxiety worse. It seems obvious but sometimes it's hard to say no if someone else is unknowingly pressuring you because it's something THEY want to do.

2. Praise yourself
Every day you do something that may provoke anxiety whether it goes good or bad praise you for giving it a go and then...

3. Pamper Yourself
If you've had a particularly bad or even good day as soon as you get home to relax, have a bath, paint your nails as a well done for surviving the day and giving something a go. 

4. Take your mind off the problem
This works particularly well if you know what's causing the problem as by reading, colouring, watching a film or doing something you particularly enjoy you can put everything else out of your mind and you might even forget about it completely. I started a project which was scrapbooking as it distracted me whilst I cut things out and stuck things in but also it encouraged me to do things so I had something to put in there.

5. Take small steps
If a train is the worst place for your anxiety don't just jump straight on a train as this could severely knock your confidence. Build the foundations first. I made this mistake but the second time around I built myself up. For me, busy cramped public spaces are a nightmare so I started off on a short busy bus journey to a quiet park to relax until now where I went on a two-hour train journey. I also caught trains I knew wouldn't be busy. I still haven't completely conquered the anxiety but small steps are really a great way to cope.


Sunday, 17 September 2017

My Autumn/Winter Wishlist

Every time autumn/winter stock hits the shelves my eyes are way bigger than my purse and I just want to buy everything in every colour. My favourite clothes to wear are burgundy, dirty pink and burnt orange (of course not all at the same time) but those colours basically sum up Autumn plus the staple monochrome pieces so I have created a wish list of the things I plan, hope or dream to buy.

Shearling Coat -
Tartan Scarf (similar) - Primark
Tan Skirt - Newlook 
Purple Skirt - H & M
Burgundy Jumper - Newlook
Charlotte Tilbury Lipstick - Pillowtalk
Charlotte Tilbury Lipstick - Glastonberry
Ankle Boots - H & M
Adidas Superstars White & Rose Gold


Friday, 15 September 2017

Primark Haul

Over the past week or two, I have done a lot of shopping, especially in Primark as they are killing it at the moment! So I thought I would share a few things in a haul on my very new YouTube channel. I hope you enjoy and don't forget to subscribe!


Wednesday, 13 September 2017

My Anxiety Story

 I have anxiety and panic attacks. 

Ever since I can remember I had never been the most outgoing child. I remember never wanting to go to things on my own such as clubs like Rainbows or Brownies or swimming as I would cry when my parents tried to leave. I also wasn't the sort to go to birthday parties of people in my class or go out to places that I didn't know. This continued the whole time whilst I was growing up but it is only now that I can see it links. Such as once the night before going on holiday I remember vividly getting myself worked up to the extent that I thought I was dying and my parents phoned a doctor as they thought I was actually ill. This I now know was a panic attack. So that was when I was 7 and gradually they got worse, more frequent. Then they got better. I thought. But I hadn't 'grew out of them' they just changed. 

I didn't have a panic attack from the age of 10 to 14 that I can remember but my anxiety never subsided I just avoided certain things. I still felt ill every time I went anywhere even if it was just town. I would feel like I was choking as my mouth was so dry and my stomach would backflip more times than I could cope with but I knew if I backed out of going I could stop it and therefore didn't panic.

However, I couldn't avoid every thing forever. So at the age of 14/15, I got my first boyfriend, I had changed my group of friends and I started to feel happy within my school but it also meant I wanted to start doing things. Visit the cinema, go shopping, go on 'dates' like a normal 15-year-old. This is where I started to have panic attacks. I remember I met my friends in town to go to the cinema and on the bus just as I did when I was young I felt choked, I couldn't breathe and I felt sick. I remember I reached the town and just as we went to catch the next bus I knew I had to get away. I felt like if I stayed there something bad would happen. Of course, I hadn't told my friends I suffered from anxiety as I didn't really know myself at that point but some how I managed to leave and get home.

This continued to happen and worsen rapidly. I split up with my boyfriend after a year, my friendship group fell apart then all of a sudden I faced GCSEs. Whilst I was in the friendship group, every day at school was happy and I loved going to the extent I didn't miss a single day even when I virtually had flu. My attitude to school quickly changed when I found I was friends with different people and my first small panic attack within school happened in a GCSE mock exam a few hours after I broke up with my boyfriend. Everyone says high school relationships don't matter but at the time it does. And it very much did. I remember sitting there and just wanting to leave the room as I felt isolated and suffocated but by half way through I began to concentrate on the paper and managed to get a good result so didn't think anything else of it and continued but there was something different at school. I felt judged and I couldn't cope. 

After the summer holidays, I had a fresh start and seemed fine until the December mocks when I sat down for the first exam of maths. Before I went in I felt unusually nervous, unlike before I wasn't joining in with my friends singing Christmas songs but still insisted I was ok. That was before I sat down and I suddenly started to shake, cry and my throat tightened. It was the worst panic attack I had, had for years and it felt, unlike anything that had happened before. I felt trapped. I asked to leave but the teacher just took me outside for two minutes then told me to return. I still couldn't cope, I would slightly relax outside and then when I returned it got worse. I asked again and was told to doodle on the back of the paper to distract myself. I was so conscious I was disturbing people around me and just wanted to get out and after four attempts I was taken out and got to sit the remainder of the exam on my own in a separate room where a teacher who specialised in students needs. When she spoke to me after I realised it was a panic attack and all of a sudden I didn't have to go back into the exam hall and could sit my exams else where which relieved me and I didn't realise how much of a burden it had been. I still had very high anxiety over exams as I believed that I could still panic. My anxiety was also making my grades drop as I hadn't been concentrating so I had added pressure to catch up. Once my GCSE's were finished I began to regain some of my old passion, ambition and motivation as I passed them. I didn't reach my target grades but I knew that with all I had coped with I had done amazingly. 

Year 12 seemed to pass ok until I reached the exams and I returned to the exam hall which led to high anxiety beforehand but luckily only a very minor panic attack in one, however, this dramatically affected my grades so opposed to reaching a BBB I scraped a C in English and D's in the others. The exams severely knocked my confidence and I started to have regular panic attacks and didn't go anywhere in the summer holiday between Year 12 and Year 13.

Year 13 is where my anxiety got the worst it has ever been in my life and it has possibly been the worst and best year of my life. I began the year with the worst start possible and refused to go in for the first week as my anxiety was so bad I fully believed I was ill. I lost weight, I looked ill and lost all motivation. I finally managed to get into school for lessons but refused to go in when I had free periods and didn't do any extra curricular activities such as trips as coaches always increased my anxiety after a panic attack on one due to someone being sick and I have emetophobia too. So after missing numerous days off I decided I needed to take action so my mom started a quest to get a separate room for my exams which took so long and in the process added so much stress onto me that I started panicking more regularly in school as the school was also making me go to sessions to help my anxiety which was actually making it worse. I couldn't concentrate in lessons as I feared the next panic attack or time a teacher would bombard me with questions. I was making myself feel physically drained and this continued from around October, worsening in January/ February where I reached a place I never want to be again until March when all the problems had been solved. Except one and that was the devastating effect all of that had had on my already deteriorating mental health. The damage was left and I couldn't move on. I also had to face all the stress of A Level's which I just couldn't cope with. Nothing went well.

However, now I can say I am doing good. Once my horrendous A Levels passed I could concentrate on me. I then went to a job interview which meant the world to me and their feedback to why I didn't get the job was 'i was too nervous' of course this was my anxiety but I hadn't told them and this kick started my aim to recover or be able to manage the anxiety. As I couldn't keep missing opportunities because of it. I then didn't do as well in my A Levels this year as last years grades were combined and brought them down leaving me in a tricky position which you can read about HERE if you also didn't get the results you wanted.

Now I am me. Occasionally I think ooh there's that feeling but I can manage it. I have been on holidays with friends to new places which I wouldn't before, gone on trains, gone to concerts, saw new things and most importantly said YES!

Yes, I can, Yes, I am and Yes, I will!

I'm in a great place now with my mental health and even though I have some regrets because I loved school and certain things ruined the experience as I missed out on things I might never get the chance to do again. I am re sitting my A Levels but...

I can't replay or change the past but I certainly won't let it repeat itself. 

Onwards and upwards!


Sunday, 10 September 2017

Malteser Cupcakes

 Every year when The Great British Bake Off hits the TV screens it immediately makes me want to bake again plus I absolutely love baking when its cosy inside and the weather is dismal outside which  is exactly what it is like in the UK at the moment and I'm not complaining! These cupcakes are possibly the easiest things to make with an all in one method and none of the toppings need to be made!


For the cake:
 175g Butter
150g Caster Sugar
1tbsp Golden Syrup
2 Eggs
5 tbsp Milk
150g Self Raising Flour
25g Cocoa Powder

Malteser Chocolate Spread
1 Bag of Maltesers


Preheat the oven to 180°c

I started making the cupcakes by measuring all the cake ingredients (Thats everything but the maltesers and spread) into one big bowl and mixed them all together into a lump free, glossy consistency. 

TOP TIP: Make sure to sieve the cocoa powder and flour otherwise it can be grainy!  

Then the mix is done told you it was easy!!

I then spooned the mixture into 12 cupcake cases making sure each case had an equal quantity in.

Depending on the oven they take around 30 - 35 minutes to bake. 

Once cooled, I used 1 tea spoon of Malteser Chocolate spread  to decorate the tops and spread using the back of the teaspoon. It really doesn't have to be perfect!

I then chopped each malteser into half - again can't be perfect as some crumbled quite a bit but that adds to the effect! - I then placed two maltesers onto the top of each cake.

Finally... Enjoy!

Let me know if you try making these yummy scrummy cupcakes!


Friday, 8 September 2017

I Started YouTube!

This video has definitely been in the making for a few years and today I have taken the plunge! I really really hope I don't embarrass myself and everyone enjoys it and subscribes because I am unbelievably nervous. Even though I know there's nothing to really be worried about except maybe the fact everyone might not like me ahhh!
Please, please, please leave suggestions below of how I could improve and any video suggestions as I want to make content both me and you will enjoy.


Sunday, 3 September 2017

Photo Diary | Liverpool

One of my main aims for summer was to go to a new place and travel somewhere with friends so that's exactly what I did and it took me to Liverpool. The home of amazing music, beautiful architecture and idyllic views. 
I expected Liverpool to be nice but it really was wonderful and I would recommend anyone to go not only for its history which I embraced through countless museums and of course the renowned Cavern Club but the atmosphere is lovely, not too busy, but still alive. Whilst there we stayed in the centre of Liverpool which was great for easy access to everything and ate at some of the cutest cafes including The Brunch Club and Bills whilst in the evening we went to a cocktail bar called Revolutions which does the most amazing food too. Of course, as a blogger, I was very pleased the decor of the places were aesthetically stunning.
I would also recommend St John's Beacon if you don't mind heights as it gives a great 360 view of the city from around 400ft high. The tour bus is also fantastic as it goes around the city and gives an overview. I went on this as soon as we got there as it gave us a better idea of where we would like to visit properly and how we would get there. 

Have you taken a mini break this summer?


Sunday, 27 August 2017

Everything Happens For A Reason

This time two weeks ago I didn't think I would be writing a post about this as I was quietly confident I would have passed my A Levels enough to allow me to move on to future steps and an eventual career path. I also thought I wouldn't write this post as to be quite honest I felt embarrassed. Two years and I'm left with very little but I was sick of seeing 'Oh look at me I have A, A, A' or 'I only managed to scrape into Uni with a 2 B's and a C instead of my 3 A's target'. Of course I am extremely happy for everyone and would never wish them anything else as they have more than likely tried so hard but when I was hoping for a C and open the envelope to see I only managed that in 1 of 3 subjects I already felt stupid, inadequate and a failure without feeling even more deflated by others spreading it across social media. So I thought for people like me who struggle SO much with exams, pressure and feel like a failure because you haven't got what you wanted. Instead of hearing everything will be alright from someone who has made sure they look like they have their life together. You can hear it from me. Someone who feels just as much of a failure especially as I have my dreams set so high I nearly lost sight of them which adds to the feeling.

But everything will be alright! And you know why? Because we are all strong- minded, determined and aspirational individuals (ooh that sounds just like a CV). We can achieve anything, success is relative and nothing can stop anyone from reaching their dreams. Do you really think every single millionaire in the world passed all of their exams? No! There's plenty of options, re-sitting, completing a different course, work experience, a different career path or a job! It might not be your original plan but who's to say it won't work out better?

I personally still don't fully know what to do so any advice would be fab in the comments as I want to get into the media industry which is very hard anyway. But i could possibly re-sit or a specific course in college which their are a lot of pro's and con's for both. But I just know I keep having to tell myself.