Sunday, 24 September 2017

My Favourite Nudes | The Lipstick Edit

I feel like it has been FOREVER since I wrote a makeup post on my blog as I lost all inspiration even though I still absolutely love makeup. However, today I am back with something I really really love and that is nudes! ( Nude lipsticks btw. don't get thinking wrongly of me now!) I am particularly loving the browny-pinks and my liquid lipstick collection is growing and growing so I thought I would share a few of my faves. They are all the same kind of tone except one maybe two as I have been loving the shade.

MAC Mehr - By far my absolute favourite! As you can tell it has been worn a lot! I have had it for a round a year and is my most worn lipstick as it just lasts forever on the lips with only one top up needed if its a particularly long day whilst the matte isn't at all drying as it sits comfortably on the lips. At £16.50 its also not the most priciest of lipsticks and I don't think MAC lipsticks can be faulted. The lipstick is mainly a pink nude but does have a slight brown undertone which makes it more of a nude and a gorgeous one at that!

MAC Brave - Keeping with the MAC theme but a relatively new purchase as I only got it back in June, its definitely another favourite and has earned a solid place in my makeup bag. At a first glance it looks exactly like Mehr but as a satin formula it gives a lovely sheen to the lips but without losing any pigmentation. Its also slightly more pink on the lips than Mehr making it a bit more girly opposed to Mehr which is heading more towards the 90's grunge nude lip colours.

Rimmel Stay Matte Liquid Lip Pink Blink - On the more affordable side of around the £5 mark this is another of my favourites and also proves that you don't always have to spend a lot to get a lot. Rimmel has always been my favourite drugstore brand and this doesn't fall short of my expectations the pigmentation is great and lasts on the lips unless eating where I don't expect many lipsticks to stay on perfectly anyway. I would also say the matte formula is comfortable and not sticky or drying.

The Body Shop Matte Lip Liquid Nairobi Camellia - Is another of my favourites as it is my go to when I am after a nude even darker than Mehr. This is the perfect autumnal nude for my skin tone as it is a brown nude with a berry undertone. It is also very affordable again at £6 and the pigmentation and longevity cannot be faulted. However I do find this works even better with a lip liner such as Rimmel East End Snob (Another favourite) as it can then last the full day.

Urban Decay Vice Liquid Lipstick Naked - I bought this specifically for prom and expected it to be more expensive than £15.50 as I am aware high end lipsticks can be sky high prices but the colour is my perfect nude and as the name describes is naked on me making it appear a my lips but better colour. This lasts the best out of all of the liquid lipsticks and the pigmentation is great but it takes a while to dry if applied wrong. However, after a couple of wears I got used to the formula and once on is very nice to wear.

Whats your favourite nude lipstick?


Friday, 22 September 2017

Classic Makeup Look | Red Lips And Liner

Today's video is my go to, glam makeup look. If in doubt I will always reach for these products and create this look as it is a classic. However, if I'm feeling slightly less daring or it doesn't go with my outfit I'll swap the bold red lip for a nude which goes equally as nice and is equally as classic. 

I used a few products I have never mentioned before but all have a place in my makeup bag as they are all gorgeous and never fail me.


The Body Shop Seaweed Moisturiser
The Body Shop InstaBlur Primer
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Green
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Yellow
L'Oreal Infallible Foundation 
Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Fair
Maybelline Age Rewind Concealer - Fair
Rimmel Stay Matte Powder - Transparent
Benefit Hoola Bronzer 
Soap & Glory Solar Powder 
Benefit Dandelion Blush
ABH DipBrow Pomade - Soft Brown
Smashbox Ablaze Palette
Zoeva Cocoa Blends Palette
MUG Cocoa Bear Single Shadow
Soap & Glory Supercat Liner 
Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara 
MAC Russian Red Lipstick 


Wednesday, 20 September 2017

5 Ways To Manage Anxiety

In no way am I an anxiety expert but as I sufferer I feel like I've been there and bought the t-shirt and in some ways, thats better as one thing I never understood when talking to someone about how I felt was how could they ever help me when they had no idea how it felt themselves. It's not just a bit of nerves or something that's just in my head. Its life consuming, it gets in the way of happiness and its all-around rubbish.

But I am luckily getting on the right track. I am in no way recovered as there's no simple cure but I have done things over the past months I didn't think I could ever do and I think it is down to a few of these things.

1. Make sure everything you do is something you want to do.
I didn't really 'want' to do anything but I still knew what I loved and what I enjoyed and what I didn't so in the first few times of going out I made sure they were things I knew I would 100% enjoy and would completely distract me once I started doing it. For me I went horse riding, shopping, walks through the countryside but whilst doing them I made sure there was something there that could potentially provoke my anxiety so I could fight it. By doing something I loved it meant I can pull through the anxiety opposed to doing something I didn't want to do as this would make my anxiety worse. It seems obvious but sometimes it's hard to say no if someone else is unknowingly pressuring you because it's something THEY want to do.

2. Praise yourself
Every day you do something that may provoke anxiety whether it goes good or bad praise you for giving it a go and then...

3. Pamper Yourself
If you've had a particularly bad or even good day as soon as you get home to relax, have a bath, paint your nails as a well done for surviving the day and giving something a go. 

4. Take your mind off the problem
This works particularly well if you know what's causing the problem as by reading, colouring, watching a film or doing something you particularly enjoy you can put everything else out of your mind and you might even forget about it completely. I started a project which was scrapbooking as it distracted me whilst I cut things out and stuck things in but also it encouraged me to do things so I had something to put in there.

5. Take small steps
If a train is the worst place for your anxiety don't just jump straight on a train as this could severely knock your confidence. Build the foundations first. I made this mistake but the second time around I built myself up. For me, busy cramped public spaces are a nightmare so I started off on a short busy bus journey to a quiet park to relax until now where I went on a two-hour train journey. I also caught trains I knew wouldn't be busy. I still haven't completely conquered the anxiety but small steps are really a great way to cope.


Sunday, 17 September 2017

My Autumn/Winter Wishlist

Every time autumn/winter stock hits the shelves my eyes are way bigger than my purse and I just want to buy everything in every colour. My favourite clothes to wear are burgundy, dirty pink and burnt orange (of course not all at the same time) but those colours basically sum up Autumn plus the staple monochrome pieces so I have created a wish list of the things I plan, hope or dream to buy.

Shearling Coat -
Tartan Scarf (similar) - Primark
Tan Skirt - Newlook 
Purple Skirt - H & M
Burgundy Jumper - Newlook
Charlotte Tilbury Lipstick - Pillowtalk
Charlotte Tilbury Lipstick - Glastonberry
Ankle Boots - H & M
Adidas Superstars White & Rose Gold


Friday, 15 September 2017

Primark Haul

Over the past week or two, I have done a lot of shopping, especially in Primark as they are killing it at the moment! So I thought I would share a few things in a haul on my very new YouTube channel. I hope you enjoy and don't forget to subscribe!


Wednesday, 13 September 2017

My Anxiety Story

 I have anxiety and panic attacks. 

Ever since I can remember I had never been the most outgoing child. I remember never wanting to go to things on my own such as clubs like Rainbows or Brownies or swimming as I would cry when my parents tried to leave. I also wasn't the sort to go to birthday parties of people in my class or go out to places that I didn't know. This continued the whole time whilst I was growing up but it is only now that I can see it links. Such as once the night before going on holiday I remember vividly getting myself worked up to the extent that I thought I was dying and my parents phoned a doctor as they thought I was actually ill. This I now know was a panic attack. So that was when I was 7 and gradually they got worse, more frequent. Then they got better. I thought. But I hadn't 'grew out of them' they just changed. 

I didn't have a panic attack from the age of 10 to 14 that I can remember but my anxiety never subsided I just avoided certain things. I still felt ill every time I went anywhere even if it was just town. I would feel like I was choking as my mouth was so dry and my stomach would backflip more times than I could cope with but I knew if I backed out of going I could stop it and therefore didn't panic.

However, I couldn't avoid every thing forever. So at the age of 14/15, I got my first boyfriend, I had changed my group of friends and I started to feel happy within my school but it also meant I wanted to start doing things. Visit the cinema, go shopping, go on 'dates' like a normal 15-year-old. This is where I started to have panic attacks. I remember I met my friends in town to go to the cinema and on the bus just as I did when I was young I felt choked, I couldn't breathe and I felt sick. I remember I reached the town and just as we went to catch the next bus I knew I had to get away. I felt like if I stayed there something bad would happen. Of course, I hadn't told my friends I suffered from anxiety as I didn't really know myself at that point but some how I managed to leave and get home.

This continued to happen and worsen rapidly. I split up with my boyfriend after a year, my friendship group fell apart then all of a sudden I faced GCSEs. Whilst I was in the friendship group, every day at school was happy and I loved going to the extent I didn't miss a single day even when I virtually had flu. My attitude to school quickly changed when I found I was friends with different people and my first small panic attack within school happened in a GCSE mock exam a few hours after I broke up with my boyfriend. Everyone says high school relationships don't matter but at the time it does. And it very much did. I remember sitting there and just wanting to leave the room as I felt isolated and suffocated but by half way through I began to concentrate on the paper and managed to get a good result so didn't think anything else of it and continued but there was something different at school. I felt judged and I couldn't cope. 

After the summer holidays, I had a fresh start and seemed fine until the December mocks when I sat down for the first exam of maths. Before I went in I felt unusually nervous, unlike before I wasn't joining in with my friends singing Christmas songs but still insisted I was ok. That was before I sat down and I suddenly started to shake, cry and my throat tightened. It was the worst panic attack I had, had for years and it felt, unlike anything that had happened before. I felt trapped. I asked to leave but the teacher just took me outside for two minutes then told me to return. I still couldn't cope, I would slightly relax outside and then when I returned it got worse. I asked again and was told to doodle on the back of the paper to distract myself. I was so conscious I was disturbing people around me and just wanted to get out and after four attempts I was taken out and got to sit the remainder of the exam on my own in a separate room where a teacher who specialised in students needs. When she spoke to me after I realised it was a panic attack and all of a sudden I didn't have to go back into the exam hall and could sit my exams else where which relieved me and I didn't realise how much of a burden it had been. I still had very high anxiety over exams as I believed that I could still panic. My anxiety was also making my grades drop as I hadn't been concentrating so I had added pressure to catch up. Once my GCSE's were finished I began to regain some of my old passion, ambition and motivation as I passed them. I didn't reach my target grades but I knew that with all I had coped with I had done amazingly. 

Year 12 seemed to pass ok until I reached the exams and I returned to the exam hall which led to high anxiety beforehand but luckily only a very minor panic attack in one, however, this dramatically affected my grades so opposed to reaching a BBB I scraped a C in English and D's in the others. The exams severely knocked my confidence and I started to have regular panic attacks and didn't go anywhere in the summer holiday between Year 12 and Year 13.

Year 13 is where my anxiety got the worst it has ever been in my life and it has possibly been the worst and best year of my life. I began the year with the worst start possible and refused to go in for the first week as my anxiety was so bad I fully believed I was ill. I lost weight, I looked ill and lost all motivation. I finally managed to get into school for lessons but refused to go in when I had free periods and didn't do any extra curricular activities such as trips as coaches always increased my anxiety after a panic attack on one due to someone being sick and I have emetophobia too. So after missing numerous days off I decided I needed to take action so my mom started a quest to get a separate room for my exams which took so long and in the process added so much stress onto me that I started panicking more regularly in school as the school was also making me go to sessions to help my anxiety which was actually making it worse. I couldn't concentrate in lessons as I feared the next panic attack or time a teacher would bombard me with questions. I was making myself feel physically drained and this continued from around October, worsening in January/ February where I reached a place I never want to be again until March when all the problems had been solved. Except one and that was the devastating effect all of that had had on my already deteriorating mental health. The damage was left and I couldn't move on. I also had to face all the stress of A Level's which I just couldn't cope with. Nothing went well.

However, now I can say I am doing good. Once my horrendous A Levels passed I could concentrate on me. I then went to a job interview which meant the world to me and their feedback to why I didn't get the job was 'i was too nervous' of course this was my anxiety but I hadn't told them and this kick started my aim to recover or be able to manage the anxiety. As I couldn't keep missing opportunities because of it. I then didn't do as well in my A Levels this year as last years grades were combined and brought them down leaving me in a tricky position which you can read about HERE if you also didn't get the results you wanted.

Now I am me. Occasionally I think ooh there's that feeling but I can manage it. I have been on holidays with friends to new places which I wouldn't before, gone on trains, gone to concerts, saw new things and most importantly said YES!

Yes, I can, Yes, I am and Yes, I will!

I'm in a great place now with my mental health and even though I have some regrets because I loved school and certain things ruined the experience as I missed out on things I might never get the chance to do again. I am re sitting my A Levels but...

I can't replay or change the past but I certainly won't let it repeat itself. 

Onwards and upwards!


Sunday, 10 September 2017

Malteser Cupcakes

 Every year when The Great British Bake Off hits the TV screens it immediately makes me want to bake again plus I absolutely love baking when its cosy inside and the weather is dismal outside which  is exactly what it is like in the UK at the moment and I'm not complaining! These cupcakes are possibly the easiest things to make with an all in one method and none of the toppings need to be made!


For the cake:
 175g Butter
150g Caster Sugar
1tbsp Golden Syrup
2 Eggs
5 tbsp Milk
150g Self Raising Flour
25g Cocoa Powder

Malteser Chocolate Spread
1 Bag of Maltesers


Preheat the oven to 180°c

I started making the cupcakes by measuring all the cake ingredients (Thats everything but the maltesers and spread) into one big bowl and mixed them all together into a lump free, glossy consistency. 

TOP TIP: Make sure to sieve the cocoa powder and flour otherwise it can be grainy!  

Then the mix is done told you it was easy!!

I then spooned the mixture into 12 cupcake cases making sure each case had an equal quantity in.

Depending on the oven they take around 30 - 35 minutes to bake. 

Once cooled, I used 1 tea spoon of Malteser Chocolate spread  to decorate the tops and spread using the back of the teaspoon. It really doesn't have to be perfect!

I then chopped each malteser into half - again can't be perfect as some crumbled quite a bit but that adds to the effect! - I then placed two maltesers onto the top of each cake.

Finally... Enjoy!

Let me know if you try making these yummy scrummy cupcakes!


Friday, 8 September 2017

I Started YouTube!

This video has definitely been in the making for a few years and today I have taken the plunge! I really really hope I don't embarrass myself and everyone enjoys it and subscribes because I am unbelievably nervous. Even though I know there's nothing to really be worried about except maybe the fact everyone might not like me ahhh!
Please, please, please leave suggestions below of how I could improve and any video suggestions as I want to make content both me and you will enjoy.


Sunday, 3 September 2017

Photo Diary | Liverpool

One of my main aims for summer was to go to a new place and travel somewhere with friends so that's exactly what I did and it took me to Liverpool. The home of amazing music, beautiful architecture and idyllic views. 
I expected Liverpool to be nice but it really was wonderful and I would recommend anyone to go not only for its history which I embraced through countless museums and of course the renowned Cavern Club but the atmosphere is lovely, not too busy, but still alive. Whilst there we stayed in the centre of Liverpool which was great for easy access to everything and ate at some of the cutest cafes including The Brunch Club and Bills whilst in the evening we went to a cocktail bar called Revolutions which does the most amazing food too. Of course, as a blogger, I was very pleased the decor of the places were aesthetically stunning.
I would also recommend St John's Beacon if you don't mind heights as it gives a great 360 view of the city from around 400ft high. The tour bus is also fantastic as it goes around the city and gives an overview. I went on this as soon as we got there as it gave us a better idea of where we would like to visit properly and how we would get there. 

Have you taken a mini break this summer?


Sunday, 27 August 2017

Everything Happens For A Reason

This time two weeks ago I didn't think I would be writing a post about this as I was quietly confident I would have passed my A Levels enough to allow me to move on to future steps and an eventual career path. I also thought I wouldn't write this post as to be quite honest I felt embarrassed. Two years and I'm left with very little but I was sick of seeing 'Oh look at me I have A, A, A' or 'I only managed to scrape into Uni with a 2 B's and a C instead of my 3 A's target'. Of course I am extremely happy for everyone and would never wish them anything else as they have more than likely tried so hard but when I was hoping for a C and open the envelope to see I only managed that in 1 of 3 subjects I already felt stupid, inadequate and a failure without feeling even more deflated by others spreading it across social media. So I thought for people like me who struggle SO much with exams, pressure and feel like a failure because you haven't got what you wanted. Instead of hearing everything will be alright from someone who has made sure they look like they have their life together. You can hear it from me. Someone who feels just as much of a failure especially as I have my dreams set so high I nearly lost sight of them which adds to the feeling.

But everything will be alright! And you know why? Because we are all strong- minded, determined and aspirational individuals (ooh that sounds just like a CV). We can achieve anything, success is relative and nothing can stop anyone from reaching their dreams. Do you really think every single millionaire in the world passed all of their exams? No! There's plenty of options, re-sitting, completing a different course, work experience, a different career path or a job! It might not be your original plan but who's to say it won't work out better?

I personally still don't fully know what to do so any advice would be fab in the comments as I want to get into the media industry which is very hard anyway. But i could possibly re-sit or a specific course in college which their are a lot of pro's and con's for both. But I just know I keep having to tell myself.



Sunday, 13 August 2017

A Few Days By The Sea | Devon 2017 | Photo Diary

Earlier in the summer, I went to Devon for a few days, it was the perfect mini break as the beaches are so picturesque and the place in Britain that is the most likely to have beautiful sunshine and it definitely did. I completely de-stressed and it couldn't have been so I thought I would share the photos as my first photo diary and relates to my Summer Bucket list I posted back at the start of July (Linked HERE).


Why I Stopped Blogging

This time last year I noticed a change in myself. A change I couldn't understand, but I lost all motivation to go out, see friends, do work and things I enjoy. I sat around, going through the motions of the day without really remembering or thinking about what I was doing. 

I then had to begin going out to sixth form every day which definitely worked in my favour opposed to the summer where I had an excuse to be lazy. But then I began to do the opposite, I still didn't do things I didn't have to such as school trips and going out on the weekend but this was because I put so much pressure on myself to do school work and other tasks such as blogging. There was too much. Two blog posts a week, studying for A levels, work and battling whatever was going on with no motivation were incredibly hard as I then beat myself up over the smallest of things.

So as everything I was doing began to disappoint me as I am such a perfectionist and if I did everything I would end up having a result of 50% rather than a 100% effort. I had to take control and get my life back and prioritise all that was important to me which at that point was my A Levels as I had to think I had tried my best. However, I still couldn't concentrate fully so my attention was forced to be moved to my mental health as I had anxiety and it was dramatically affecting my happiness no matter what I told people. So at this point, I went back to doing nothing, I limited everything I did for a while to get my brain back together, for example, my blog posts had gone from 2 a week to at this point 1 a fortnight but the only way to focus was to stop altogether. I also did this for revision, I spent a week doing absolutely none. Both were a huge risk as I could never have regained motivation but for me, it put everything into perspective. My mental health improved so therefore so did my physical health and I could concentrate on school more effectively.

However, through this, there was one thing I forgot about and that was my blog. Some people would say that didn't matter, it's just a hobby. But I have worked at this for about 3 years and I wasn't about to let it all fall apart. But I put off doing it and could get absolutely no motivation. Luckily I had a few pre- prepared posts which instead of filling my old schedule of a month I rescheduled to over three months so it looked like I hadn't dropped off the face of the earth.
Despite that, to dishearten me even more because I hadn't promoted on social media there were very limited views only reaching 2,000 which is low compared to what I was used to seeing. Even though everyone claims views don't matter but really everyone wants some kind of gratification for the effort it takes and it was taking me a bloody lot of effort to get my computer out let alone actually write something of a high enough quality to post.

So today after months of contemplating sacking it off or rebranding or pretending it never happened I hope to start producing content but I'm not promising they won't be sporadical as I'm still not completely inspired and I definitely will be rebranding my now happy little corner of the internet.


Sunday, 9 July 2017

My Summer Bucket List!

I did one of these posts last year and as I sit here I am one week into my summer holidays and have not yet got around to doing anything remotely exciting except work, work and more work. Last year I nearly completed my whole summer bucket list bar a couple which at the time was impossible for me to complete so I thought why not do it again. It's my last school summer holiday so why not have the time of my life. *Begins to sing like Dirty Dancing*

Go somewhere I have never been before
There are some many cities in the UK I have not yet visited but at the same time much of my hometown I have lived in constantly for 18 years of life is probably undiscovered so this summer I will go places, see new things and experience everything there is to offer.

Go on holiday with friends
There is currently one in the planning process (if we can ever decide where to go) which I really REALLY hope happens as I know it would be the best few days ever. 

Go to the beach
Now, this is just a summer must!

Pass My Driving Test
This is my biggest goal as I know if I do this I will be able to go anywhere, be free with little restraints but it seems to be harder than I first thought it would.

Visit a safari park
This is a bit of a random one but my whole life I have wanted to go on safari and this summer that would be unrealistic to think of but I have never even been to a safari park so I need to go!

Go horse riding
This was on last years bucket list and I did a short beginner ride for an hour to see if I liked it and I loved it so this time I would want to do a more scenic route and learn to gallop rather than just a slow walk.

Go on a zip wire 
I love the adrenalin of adventure sports and I have one quite local so I am determined to go on it.

Read some books
I cannot remember the last time I read a book that wasn't for A Level English and although it has kind of put me off staring at a page of words I want to get back into reading as I have so many unread ones on my bookshelf.

Have a picnic
Again, I'm sure this is a summer essential!

Like reading I can't remember the last time I did this even though it is possibly one of my favourite things as I find it so calming and a great way to get away from stress.

Collect memories
Last summer I started a photo album, this year my parents bought me a scrapbook for my 18th birthday as my adult life began I can document it and I hope to stick to it.

What's on your bucket list?


Sunday, 2 July 2017

All About The Urban Decay Naked Heat Palette

Well, if you haven't heard about the Urban Decay Naked Heat Palette you must have been living under a rock as I think everybody and their grandmothers hyped over this when Urban Decay dropped it the other week. I got mine in the presale on the 12th June but never got round to it because exams *yawn* leaving me wondering whether it was even worth doing this post as everybody already knows about it but I took a heck of a lot of photos of the beauty so it just seemed essential.
 So before I get started with the gorgeous colours, I will give the boring details out. I am not one to usually buy expensive makeup as a drugstore gal through and through so this is my first Urban Decay Naked Palette as although the others are stunning none struck me as 'my perfect palette' but I love a good burnt orange and warm tones so at £39 I went for it. Even though I am still contemplating my life decision as it was mid exam season where I treated myself more often than I should of and is now the most expensive makeup item I own so I will take the price into consideration as I go through. 

First up, the packaging. As I expect all Urban Decay palettes come, it arrived in a box. No surprises there. But the aesthetics of the box and the palette itself are gorgeous with the orange and amber hues which just scream summer which I am all for but it is quite heavy meaning the practicalities of it for travelling aren't the best.
 Onto the shades from left to right:
Ounce: The perfect white shade to set the lid.
Chaser: A cream shade also perfect to set the lid.
Sauced: A warm taupe great as a transition shade
Low blow: A slightly darker transition shade
Lumbre: Possibly my favourite shadow as it is slightly duo-chromed as it is a shimmery amber but slightly copper, slightly burgundy which I find changes depending on what colour or light it is in.
He Devil: Burnt orange for the crease.
Dirty Talk: A gorgeous amber shimmer
Scorched: A pinker toned shimmer
Cayenne: Great for deepening the crease
En Fuego: A deep burgundy
Ashes: Appears more purple but is actually a dark brown great for further deepening the crease or smokey liner. 
Ember: A dark brown shimmer.

I would say the colour selection is beautiful and perfect for anyone who loves a warm smokey eye however it is virtually impossible to create a soft, light suitable look and I would have loved a copper shade but I already have a thousand and one in my selection so it doesn't bother me. However, the pigmentation of the matte shades are probably the best I have ever used and the shimmers appear beautifully. They also have an incredible staying power even without primer and blend out so well. However, I would say the shadows are comparable in quality to my Zoeva and Smashbox palettes which were £20 so I am still left contemplating whether the price is a tad over the top.

What do you think of the new Naked palette?